Frustration

[affreca]

I haven't been making proper entries because I'm stressing myself more and more about lack of progress on thesis. I still haven't written anything more on the proposal. I can't blame lack of time anymore, I've made myself time. I'm out of excuses. I know I should do it, but I don't want to, at some deep level that is apparently more powerful. I finally freaked out good last night to Tom, and vocalized the three options I see. I'm meeting with Ross (my adviser) today, and putting it out into the open.

-Admit I'll be here next year, don't take thesis hours, but take the graduate school's thesis writing class. I tend to do things required for a class, and apparently I don't take thesis hours as a real class.

-Admit I'll be here another year and look for a new thesis topic. Part of my problem is that I'm not in love with my research, and I want to be.

-Drop out. Scary on the failure end, but very tempting.

Admitting this to Ross is going to be hard, but I need to. It is getting tied up in my "what am I going to do with my life" issues.

Comments

[(Anonymous)]

Hang in there.

[ninja-tech.livejournal.com]

Wow. Sounds like there is a major decision coming up. While my first instinct is to encourage you to stick it out, the other part of me tells me not to be bossy and let you work it out with those who know your situation better. What ever you decide to do - I'll be rooting for you. Gambatte!