Up for No Good Reason

[affreca]

That's me. As I start into doing things I care about, I start worrying more. The bane of my existance shall be research. And what do I want to research. Geophysics. Probably sounds specialized to you, but what aspect? Enviromental or Exploration (for oil)? Not really. I like big topics, which is why I liked planetary. But nobody to specializes in that here. And most of those schools are 7 year PhD programs, which I didn't want to commit to. Because I still might end up becoming a librarian. I don't know. And that's a bit of a problem, or was at at least damn uncomfortable to explain at my advisory comittee meeting. As is the fact I don't remember enough to be terribly enthused about anything. And unlike many incoming grad students, I'm not all enthused to be following up on a specialization that I already started. Hmm, seem to be a series of odd projects. From neutrino detectors (very little effort expended on my part before I dropped out), to glacial hydrology (experiment didn't work, halfhearted followup with the math), to Venusian structures (still don't completely understand the math of what I did, and did not follow through), to continental glacial modeling (dropped a couple of weeks in when I decided that I didn't need a undergrad thesis and I sucked at research). So what makes me think I can do it this time? I don't know. Sould searching with adviser time. At least I think I have an adviser who isn't terribly specialized himself. And Fridays off isn't a good thing. I'll want to jet off, or not leave my house. Focus.

Comments

[ninja-tech.livejournal.com]

I kind of can empathize. It's weird--but it's like me and the whole wanting a change thing. *sigh* Then again--what's wrong with changing one's mind? --clare