Motivation

is lacking. And very confused. I had hoped to get started on THINGS THAT ARE DUE last week, and managed to distract myself very well. And I read books. Yesterday I breezed through my GIS labs and grading. And spent the night twitching, because I have two bugaboos staring at me. My thesis proposal and my GIS final project. Have I mentioned they deal with the same thing? Yeah. And so I'm doing other things right now, like prepping for teaching, enrolling in classes, hunting missing students and hunting down a thesis committee. And wonder what I'm doing to myself. I'm making myself into a nervous wreck, nervous about messing up so much doing is hard. It isn't a new trap, which almost makes it worse. I want to be a grown up, and able to handle it. So I've got stuff to get started, and talking to my GIS prof about my project tomorrow. It isn't using that much GIS and I don't think it is that interesting, and it should have been further before this. So don't be surprised if I drop out of grad school in the next week.

Cat Quotes

Damn it, remind me next time I'm in the bookstore (or home) to read my Niel Gaiman. Or add his blog to my lj feed. Because the man writes good. And count the number of cats he admits to. Can I get another kitty if I become a famous author.*

*Not that we haven't pratically adopted Sid and Maggie already. We feed them. They now hang out in our mud room. Sid flirts with Tom by doing the roll thing a foot away. Good blood to take back to the farm.