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So the life decision that I haven't talked about here yet is my decision to drop out of grad school. I love taking classes and teaching, but I haven't gotten anywhere in my research. I feel really guilty about that. So nothing gets done. And then feel more guilty. And worry about never finishing anything in my life ever again, drifting from job to job. All very emo, so not worth inflicting on others.

Well, I haven't told many people in real life, either. My parents, my adviser, my favorite two fellow TAs and a couple of friends. On the way to collect data for one of my classes, George (my GPR prof) casually asked my plans were for the summer. I admitted I was dropping out. He spent ten minutes trying to talk me into finishing, and then dropped it. But you could see wheels turning in his head.

So he offered me a GRA position for next year, starting this summer. Doing short surveys for KDOT to show the usefulness of GPR. Flattering.. yes. And I can see being useful in career sense. And eliminates the need for job hunting. A thesis could be derived from one of the reports.

I have two weeks to decide. I am trying to not be to enthusiastic. I know he is a somewhat difficult boss/adviser. I'm scared to be at this position again next year. But I think I should try again.

Meanwhile,